As you keep track of all the ways that your illness triggers shame, reflect on the beliefs that underlie these triggers. For some reason people (including my mum) think I'm going to be cured one day which I'm not. It is forged in relationships – the dysregulating others mentioned in the above definition. Mindfulness also develops empathy for ourselves – instead of the confusion and abandonment of ourselves that comes with deep shame. In a recent New York Times article Hillary Jacobs Hendel, a psychotherapist, writes about a patient who experienced what she calls “chronic shame.” Instead of feeling contained, I feel out of control. Like many authors, Pat delineates between guilt (I’m a worthwhile person who did a bad thing) and shame (I’m a bad person). This latter section completely undid me and I cried through my whole reading of it. I also love how she suggests that those with vividly plural experience may have an easier task than those who cover over ‘unacceptable’ parts of themselves completely. So illness is not just about the body malfunctioning; it’s about the ill person’s character. A final one kept herself separate from other people because nobody noticed her struggles as a kid and she’d learnt she was safer without others, fearing that any friends would – of course – eventually see what was defective about her. ‘From a neurobiological perspective it seems that someone could live in a chronic state of low-arousal shame that is chronically dysregulated because, although she’s always somewhat conscious of shame, it is well hidden from others. They may indirectly shame us with disappointment in our ‘failings’. I intentionally use the word “combat” because I want us to acknowledge that the shame we feel about being chronically ill is harmful. Sontag, S. (1977). Do your thoughts feel frozen? Instead of learning that we can do something bad and survive, in shame we learn that our emotional self – who feels those ‘bad’ feelings – is bad, and we try to disconnect from them. Some even actively harm themselves. You tell yourself “What’s wrong with you anyway, to feel this? For example, our internal voices may directly shame us with attacks. If there’s unclear distinctions between having done deliberate wrong or having made innocent mistakes – responses to both give the message that you are bad and stupid. These struggles include depression, anxiety, relationship difficulties, and numbing addictions that ‘fill-in’ for deeper unmet needs or offer some sense of emotional regulation. Pat concludes the book saying that she doesn’t think that chronic shame can ever be completely cured, but that ‘shame reduction’ is possible. Especially when our illnesses are not immediately visible, we may worry that someone will question our use of these benefits and say, “But you don’t look sick!”. For them, the problem is always somebody else. ‘Consistently wondering about “what happened?” suggests the possibility again and again that maybe feelings don’t just come from weird, wrong places inside… Maybe they are understandable responses to real events!’. Pat suggests that we might usefully tell our stories about how the following things were dealt with in our upbringings: communication, emotions, needs, mistakes, difference, achievements. ‘When a child fails to elicit a gaze that supports his intentionality, excitement, and indwelling sense of self, he will experience something else: being looked at in a way that objectifies him.’. Hence me writing these blog posts. New York:  Picador. Looking and acting differently than “the norm” can also be a shame trigger. These body and mind signals are your clues:  when you experience them, you can name the experience as “shame”. When these internal dynamics are highly familiar to us, shaming relationships easily get replicated again and again in our lives. And then your hurt feelings about not having your needs met cause you even more shame.’. Sharing stories is also another way to get the kind of connection that we often struggle with when we hide parts of ourselves due to shame. Most of all they have trouble believing that anyone actually loves them. They feel shattered, or as if they are falling apart.’. Is your fear that they will reject you due to your illness founded? As a child, they learned that the purpose of their existence is to meet other people’s needs. There may very well be people in the world who will devalue you because of your illness. Neither approach helps because the sense of being terrible, disgusting or despicable is non-verbal and visceral, out of reach of this rational, logical, language-based approach. I am still me and that is the most important thing. It corrodes the person from the inside and can affect all areas of their life. Here are some of the more common issues people who have chronic shame struggle with. In chronic shame these connections are often poor. As a result, they also feel an overwhelming sense of responsibility. That is ok, but there has been much grief and some hiding on my part. Instead of feeling that I’ll be okay, I feel like I’m falling apart.’. It resists self-help and undermines even intensive psychoanalysis. Working with a therapist in this way helps us to learn what it is like: All of these things should help us to develop a relationship with ourselves which is more emotionally regulating, and relationships with others which are more genuine and mutual, and less grounded in the avoidance of shame. This is why Pat puts so much emphasis on emotion-to-emotion attuned, regulating connection with a therapist as an important part of working with chronic shame. This is akin to Pete Walker’s idea that we need to reparent ourselves and be reparented by committee. Shame associated with chronic illness is painful, debilitating, and bad for our health. I often receive comments, messages, and emails saying, “I just read your article and it’s spot on—that’s exactly how I feel, I just didn’t know how to put it into words! Internally we have both an inner critic part who shames us, and other parts who are shamed by them. 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